1) Its a huge sample
2) I played 75% of those hands at NL2 and NL5.
And in the small amount of hands that I have played this year I have run very poorly as well. Its very disheartening as most any regular poker player knows and can have devastating effects on your game.
But when I posted those numbers in the comments...
NL2 + 62 buyins
NL5 - 28 buyins
NL10 + 1 buyin meaningless sample
NL25 - 29 buyins
NL50 + 8 buyins
NL100 - 2 buyins meaningless sample
...I didn't even look at the buyin amounts. I was simply fixated on the number $500. Negative $500.
But, if I count the EV in terms of buyins won or lost I am actually ahead by 12 of them (7 now as of the writing of this post) over those 2 million hands! I am running above average! Thats right, I run good! I'm just down a bunch of money because most of my run bad has come at higher limits.
But I think the EV of buyins is a much truer measure of your overall luck than total money won/lost because the latter can easily get skewed by your higher limit results as in my case. Unfortunately I don't know how to easily display this in HEM (hence the manual counting above) although you can graph in big blinds and big bets.
I don't want to ever look at these stupid numbers again. I always had them turned off in HEM for that reason. I see countless poker players whine and whine and whine some more about them. Yet twist them around and you might actually be running good.
This is a quote from Nanonoko the other day on 2+2 when asked how he thinks he runs:
I totally agree. As far as I am concerned I run like God all the time. And don't let me ever try and convince you otherwise again ;p
"I think I run well but that's cuz I'm an optimist. Being a pessimist tends to hamper your performance in a lot of things..."