Hands Played Today - 6611
Hands Played July - 157328
I had a downswing that lasted 100k hands once. That was a couple of years ago. Normally I get a 20k or 30k DS or a couple 10k's each month and its a bit annoying but I grind through it. I currently can't even remember the last time that I logged on to Pokerstars to put in a session and had anything resembling a chance to win. It is only due to the sheer retardation that is NL5 that I have been able to win any money at all.
For 75k hands now I have been losing every big pot that I play. People say just grind through it, but how do you grind through it when there is no end? I have been putting in massive volume the last week and a half and I just sit here and stare at the screen, with a senseness of numbness and disbelief, as yet another pot gets shipped to an opponent on a miracle river or cooler.
Overall I am fine and haven't tilted too much although I have zero confidence and have missed several value bets because I fear the worst every time. I know that I am seeing the worst that variance has to offer. Perhaps the worst I have ever seen over 4 or 5 million hands. And I guess I should be grateful that I am only losing 25 dollar pots at most and am not even losing money overall. I think all I can do is compartmentalize each day and move on. Today was something like the 12th day in a row of complete wtf. Perhaps tomorrow will be different.